Second week back at Celebrate Recovery; this time with the hubby. It’s been a long time since he has gone. When we moved we searched for this Christian based step study and it’s how we found our church. They were just starting it up and we would be apart of the leadership to help bring it to fruition. This has been a huge support dealing with my health issues, our marriage, and our family life. We both carried heavy hurts from our childhood and past. We needed a place where we can work towards releasing the bondage that held us back. So we can move pass the hurts, the hang-ups and the habits in able for us to truly live peaceful, healthy, productive lives.
We have never had any kind of counseling at least after going through all we have gone through with my health trails. This has been very effective in helping us with every trial. I know the different levels of coping methods we go through and lately it feels like we are running on fumes. It has been a whirlwind coming out of the many hospital stays; surgery after surgery. Sometimes we wonder if we even had time to have post-traumatic stress. We somehow kept pushing along but there is always a breaking point. It’s timely to go after the break through before we have the break down.
Tonight I felt that assurance again. It felt complete to have my hubby by my side. I try to never force anything on him. Between the both of us he’s had to carry most of the load; maintaining work and keeping up with our family life, when I just couldn’t hold up my part because of not physically able to. Being his other half I could feel when he is depleted. I was surprised he wanted to come tonight but maybe it was his friend’s testimony we listened to over the weekend that inspired him. Or maybe he could already see how much it helped me last week.
I could already see a lightness in his spirit an in mine. See a smile that I haven’t seen in a while. There is just a realness in this place that our souls desire. A place where we can be transparent and lift the heavy load. We appreciate being with like-minded individuals who are seeking to find go after their miracle. I’m glad we really never stopped pursuing ours.