Hello all there in the blogging world. It’s been a while since I’ve written an actual post on my blog. With every post it can be such a process. It is like a birthing process and lately I’ve felt the labor pains and it’s time to birth a new word. I have had a bad case of writer’s block mixed with a bit of attention issues.
I have started several post just waiting to be finished but not finding all the words to complete it. That’s how my mind has functioned as I made it through another season recovering from the last Valley Fever relapse.
I have had to heal yet again and take that time to let my body do it’s thing. I’m seeing when I’m in a midst of a fight I have an out pour of words but when things get quiet I get a little quiet; at least with words. It’s almost like I sit back and just have to process everything; as things happen so fast.
Expressing myself is still and always will be apart of my healing and me. Written expression is something that I feel is apart of myself. The labor pain I speak of is the words that must continue to flow. Half the time I have to sort through my thoughts to even know exactly where to start.
Lately I’ve tried to be more in tuned and in the moment. Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram and now Instagram stories has helped me do this. Follow me there as I have been more consistent with daily sharing. The only downside is that I’m becoming a lazy writer. I’m getting worse with my grammar and simple punctuation mistakes.
Till this day I will never be able to proof my writing. I will always miss a mistake. It’s simply lazy writing at best. However it still very effective in reaching out to people. Consistency helps and can only imagine if I stayed consistent with my blogging community. Thanks for understanding especially to those who stuck by from the beginning.
I love to document all my days. It not only helps me remember things but helps me to never to forget. I don’t ever want to forget how blessed I am to still be around to experience all that I get to experience. Especially when life gets so hectic; that I could barely remember the day none less my own name.
In this past year we traveled to Hawaii, my oldest son graduated, my husband transitioned to be my home caregiver, I transitioned to home hemodialysis, and our lives somewhat went back to what I call our “normal”… Which all deserve post of their own (All is the works).
We’ve made almost 12 years fighting illnesses and still moving forward and making a life for ourselves. The road hasn’t been easy and many things had to be sacrificed. One thing that will never change is the strength of my family unit. We just want to see each other happy and well especially when it comes to our boys well-being.
It’s hard when things can be uncertain and the gleaming of death is around your shoulder. Peaking through with each new obstacle. But life can never be dimmed as long as you continue to fight for another day. Fight for all the good days and always let it outshine the bad days.
As September (my birthday month) came I decided to post each day to celebrate life. In 5 days I will turn 37 years old and every year feels like another milestone. I was hoping it would be on this blog but went with the convenience of Instagram.
I recently shared an old post there that helped ignite the writing bug in me. In Lead The Way I talk about the power of what we say. It’s time to start speaking life into my dreams again. I believe this blog has allowed me to do that in many ways as well as capture it.
As I begin another chapter in this blogging and sharing life. I hope to hear from those that has been here for a while and from new folks too. I want to continue to grow through this journey and by doing so help others going through difficult times.
People like me who have fought for a long time. Who’s prayers have not been answered. Who are still waiting. Who are still in pain. I understand.
Just recently a complete stranger reminded me how in the Bible Paul continued to pray to be healed of the thorn in his flesh:
Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say, or with these surpassingly great revelations. So to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me.… ~2 Corinthians 12:6-10
Paul’s one of the greatest writers in the Bible because of his infirmities. He preached the good news and upon that his actions followed. I am growing because of this dialog that has been created between fighters, survivors and thrivers alike.
Like Paul let’s keep birthing new words and new life by sharing our life’s journey.Cheers to this next chapter and to another year!
Enjoy some of my instant sharing this past year